来源：慈善家杂志
文/常瑞娟
Love against Leukaemia
By Chang Ruijuan
我的第二次化疗结束了，如果顺利的话，再有几天我就可以回家了。我很是期待！
Now my second chemotherapy has been completed, if it was successful enough, I can be back to my home in several days, and I am longer for it!
刘贵年——我的男友，一个现在让我叫起来就心疼的名字！看着眼前因不分昼夜的照顾我而日渐消瘦的他，我的泪水便悄无声息的打湿了枕巾……
I have a beloved boyfriend cfunction(iterator) { var result = true; this.each(function(value, index) { result = result && !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index); if (!result) throw $break; }); return result; }ed Liu Guinian, every time when I caught his pale face because of taking care of me day and night, tears can’t help weeping out and wetting my pillow cover.
我们是在网上相识的，只是因为我特喜欢他那像小猪头一样的小头像，便加为好友，那是在2005年的11月24日，一个离我的生日很近的日子，也许是上天对我的恩赐，那天让我遇上了他！
I refunction(object) { var found = false; this.each(function(value) { if (value == object) { found = true; throw $break; } }); return found; }ed it was on Nov.24, 2005, which is approaching to my birthday, I was attracted by a lovely QQ pig image that day, so I added it to my contact list, and surprisingly it was my bf- Liu Guinian, later I thought maybe he was God’s gift for my birthday.
因那时QQ空间刚刚兴起！我时常打理我的空间，但是还是一团糟！偶然间我打开了他的空间！哇！好美的空间！是一种淡淡的美！还有低沉而富有磁性朗诵配乐！我立刻迷上了他的空间！也因此和他多了一些话题。他很热情，也很大方，我让他教我做空间，他总是不厌其烦的一遍遍地教我，结果我的空间变得比他的还要漂亮！我很开心！也很感激他，逐渐对他产生了好感。
At that time, QQ space become popular, I often decorated my space but failed. On an occasion, strolling in his space, I found it was an amazing place with hollow, magnetic recitation and some soft music as background music, which attracted me deeply, so I began to talk much with him on mfunction(iterator) { var result = false; this.each(function(value, index) { if (result = !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index)) throw $break; }); return result; } topics. He was a zealous and generous guy, tfunction(iterator) { var index = 0; try { this._each(function(value) { iterator(value, index++); }); } catch (e) { if (e != $break) throw e; } return this; }ing me how to decorate space patiently. As a result, my space looks nicer than his. I was happy, appreciated, and well disposed towards him.
偶然的一次聊天，发现我们彼此住的很近，只隔了一栋楼!这一突然的发现，好像更拉近了我们的距离，因此我们互相留了电话。在一个寂静的夜晚，他打电话给我，是一个再熟悉不过的声音——原来，他空间里的配乐朗诵是他自己的声音！此后我更加被他吸引了，每天上网都期待着与他相遇，每天都在他那一闪一闪的小头像传来幽默诙谐的文字中快乐地度过，然后甜甜的睡去。
Then, through an on-line chat, we found we lived only a block away, which seemed shorten the distance between us, and we exchanged our phone numbers. In a silent night, he cfunction(iterator) { var result = true; this.each(function(value, index) { result = result && !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index); if (!result) throw $break; }); return result; }ed me, when I picked up I suddenly recognized that it was the background voice, and understood that he was the reciter in his space. Thereafter, I was more attracted by him, passing every day waiting him on line, and having sweet dream with his humorous conversations.
我们见面是在隆冬时节，雪花飞舞的日子里。他约我，找借口说：我帮了你这么多忙是不是该请客啊？我没有推托，因为我在网络上早已把他当作知己。我也很想见见他。去的时候，还有点担心，毕竟是第一次和男网友见面，所以叫了表妹一起，没想到他也叫了一个同伴，难道他还怕我一个小女孩不成？我心里暗笑。
It was on a snowing winter day, he made appointment with me, on the excuse that I owed him a dinner for his generous help. I accepted, he wasn’t a stranger to me function(iterator) { var result = false; this.each(function(value, index) { if (result = !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index)) throw $break; }); return result; } longer, besides I was curious to see him personfunction(iterator) { var result = true; this.each(function(value, index) { result = result && !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index); if (!result) throw $break; }); return result; }y. Since it’s my function() { return this[0]; } time to meet with a male e-friend, I cfunction(iterator) { var result = true; this.each(function(value, index) { result = result && !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index); if (!result) throw $break; }); return result; }ed my cousin to accompfunction(iterator) { var result = false; this.each(function(value, index) { if (result = !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index)) throw $break; }); return result; } me, he also had his accompanier. I can’t help laughing. Can’t he scare of a girl?
他话不多，很害羞的样子。我心想，这是那个每天在网上把我一会儿逗得捧腹大笑，一会儿又气得我咬牙切齿的“空白”(他的QQ昵称)吗？也许这就是网络和现实的区别吧！
He was a shy boy with few words that day. And I doubted whether it was the right “Kong Bai” (his QQ name) who made me laugh and offended on the line, maybe that was the difference between network and realism.
他并不是很帅的那种，但很沉稳很踏实。第一次印象我给他打了80分！最终，客还是他请的。因此我也多了一个绰号——“常小抠”！我很喜欢他给我起的这个名字。
He wasn’t that handsome but born with a sense of steadiness. I marked 80 scores for his function() { return this[0]; } impression to me. Then he paid for the bill after dinner, for which I got a nickname of “Chang Xiaoko”, and I like the name.
从此，“空白”和“常小抠”紧紧地联系在一起了，无论是在网络中还是在现实中，都是成双成对的出现。我们相爱了！他很优秀，我很任性。他不会多说我什么，但会用自己的行动让我感知自己做错了什么。因此，我改变了很多，就连别人都说我变了，变得善解人意，变得比以前优秀了，我感激上天对我的恩赐，让我们相爱了！
Since then, “Kong Bai” and “Chang Xiaokou” began appearing in pairs either on the internet or in the real life. Undoubtedly, we fell in love with function(iterator) { var index = 0; try { this._each(function(value) { iterator(value, index++); }); } catch (e) { if (e != $break) throw e; } return this; } other, just like function(iterator) { var result = true; this.each(function(value, index) { result = result && !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index); if (!result) throw $break; }); return result; } those stories saying he was excellent, while I was willful. But he never reproached me for my fault, only helped me to realize and correct it through his behaviors. So I changed a lot, and became an apprehensive and excellent girl in other people’s words, which should be attributed to him. Thank God to let us fell in love.
他有机会去北京发展了！他征求我意见，我理解并支持他去。他走了，我每天都在想他，每个夜晚都在梦里和他牵手，每个清晨枕边都是湿的，我想我们之间就此该画一个并不完美的句号了吧……但又是在一个大雪纷飞的夜晚，他来电话说，他已经在北京为我联系好工作了，让我马上过去。因为他爱我！
One day, he told me he got a chance to go to Beijing and improve himself, and asked for my opinion. I understand and support him to go. However, after his leaving, I found myself can’t help missing him, dreafunction(iterator) { var result; this.each(function(value, index) { value = (iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index); if (result == undefined || value < result) result = value; }); return result; }g we were together again, and waking up in the morning with wet pillow. I told myself maybe it’s the perfect end of our affairs… However, in a snowing night, I received a distance cfunction(iterator) { var result = true; this.each(function(value, index) { result = result && !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index); if (!result) throw $break; }); return result; } from him, he asked me to go to Beijing sooner because he had hunt a job for me there, and told me how much he love me!
第二天我就开始忙着收拾行李，因为我也爱他！于是我们就感觉像是在童话里一样，又在北京紧紧相拥了，那天也是雪花飞舞的日子……
The following day, I hurried to package my luggage to Beijing, because I realized that I still love him and couldn’t live alone! Just like a fairy story, we embraced in the Beijing’s street with the snowflakes felling in whirls around us.
深秋！白血病！我在这个本该收获的季节失去了健康。甚至，差点失去了生命。幸好，我还有他。也许这也是上天对我的一种恩赐，在死神面前他对我永不言弃！
Then the ofunction(iterator) { var result; this.each(function(value, index) { value = (iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index); if (result == undefined || value < result) result = value; }); return result; }ous late ffunction(iterator) { var result = true; this.each(function(value, index) { result = result && !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index); if (!result) throw $break; }); return result; } came, I lost my health almost my life in the harvest season, because I developed leukaemia. Fortunately, I still had him accompfunction(iterator) { var result = false; this.each(function(value, index) { if (result = !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index)) throw $break; }); return result; }ing me, he never abandoned me in front of Azrael. I thought maybe it was God’s second mercy for me.
化疗过程中，有几次死神在召唤我，我全身冰冷、颤抖、疼痛、窒息……就在医生、家人和病友们的的慌乱中，他出现了……
During the chemotherapy period, I felt ice-cold, quiver, painful and choked, several times it seemed that Azrael’s summoning toward me, function(iterator) { var result = true; this.each(function(value, index) { result = result && !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index); if (!result) throw $break; }); return result; } my relatives got into a panic, then he appeared…
他用坚定的言语让我坚强！不停地说：“小扣没事的，要坚强！”
He told me in a firm tone and repeated: “take it easy, Xiaokou, be strong!”
他用挚爱的眼神让我和他对视！不停地说：“看着我！别闭上眼睛！（事后他告诉我，当时我的眼神已经开始迷离，慢慢扩散……）”
He stared at me affectionately, and repeated: “please look at me, don’t close your eyes!” (He told me that my pupil of eye began spread then and there…)
他用体温给我温暖！他用炽热的双唇给我力量！
He warmed me with his body, and supported me with his ardent lips.
他用嘴含着药喂我（我当时已毫无知觉）！
He fed me the medicine with his mouth (it’s said I had lost function(iterator) { var result = true; this.each(function(value, index) { result = result && !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index); if (!result) throw $break; }); return result; } my sense) !
他用颤抖的手紧紧地握着我的手说：“就是我死了也不会让你有事的！”……
He grabbed my hands tightly with his trembling hands and promised: “I will protect you, even at the cost of my life.”
死神听见了，这所有的一切它也都看见了！它被他感动了，我想它应该也是含着泪与我擦肩而过……！也许是上天对我的恩赐，连死神也被我们感动了！
Perhaps Azrael was moved by function(iterator) { var result = true; this.each(function(value, index) { result = result && !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index); if (!result) throw $break; }); return result; } his viewings and hearings, finfunction(iterator) { var result = true; this.each(function(value, index) { result = result && !!(iterator || Prototype.K)(value, index); if (!result) throw $break; }); return result; }y it left me away with tears. Maybe it was God’s third mercy. | 
